we'd learn how our bodies worked.

i'm not ready to be anywhere
except near you.






i feel very inadaquit in my life at this moment in time.
it's like i only want one thing...
well one person.
i just can't seem to move my mind off of this subject, i can't seem to think of anything but you. and to be completely honest i'm not that upset about it. everyone is concerned for my well being though...i'm not suppose to take this long. but i keep my mind tied to the memories of everything that was. at this moment i'm just staring at my fingers and not watching the words i type out transfer themselves onto the screen because i've been searching for something inside myself for some time now, and i think that when i look at the words i write, it's like i'm editing everything in my mind. it's been dying to get out. i just can't though. i can't face these facts because that means i'm going to have to face graduation which is coming much more fast then i ever thought it could. it's like i'm losing my opportunity to get to know this amazing group of people. it just seems lik ethe more i cling to the idea of wanting to know these people, the more it seems to slip through my hands.

this morning i felt the presence of God again. it was invigorating,
and i know what i have to do and that definatly causes quite the problem for myself. i need to let go of everything i want and completely go into submition for my faith...and that is something i know will give me everything i've been longing for for so long.


i haven't started any of my homework that's due tomorrow, and i'm really hoping for a snow day that's a seventy five percent chance away.
i'll finish my homework before school tomorrow, but
it'll be at the darkest hours of the night.





in conclusion.
i don't want to use spell check.