Today is that day.

Most times in my life I feel like I have been left short, like everything I do for anyone else is always cut off by my own needs. It's not only me with other people, my selfishness is surely a problem I'll face into my later years... but It feels as though my time with people is cut short...or at least the amount of time I'd like to spend with them. Learn their story...Heck re-learn their story...
But there's never enough time.




Today is PLEASE.
And I have to say that I could be facing my worst demons when I stare at that cardboard wall. It's a reflection of me. A mirror that I stare into when I look at the words plastered on the board.

I've been searching and searching and searching for God coming up lost and a little more hurt, and a little less willing.
But something came to last night when I was trying to calm my nerves and get back to sleep.
What if I just stop searching?
What if I take a deep breath and let the world revolve around me...let it continue on, not afraid...just watching waiting.




Tonight...
I'm going to see you.
je'taime encore..[ican'tspellinfrench]
I don't know exactly how i'm going to deal with this...
but



so you know..








I'm going to be
just fine,
with
or without you
in the rest of my life.









[beautifulday,beautifulday,beautifulday]