something old.

i need to type these up
so i can throw the hard copies away,
they're a crumpled mess.


[songlyric.]
Due to the recent power outages
We haven't seen light for days
I've been searching for some resoultion
to clear up [my ways][the haze.]



and a sonnet (sp?)
with messed up syllables
...i still think it's cool.

[i'm a puddle on the floor]
there was a time of much contemplation
when my decisions never made much sense
they would always come with hesitation
soon finding myself outside present tense.

Captivating is your silent presence
Don't hold me responsible to describe
how you have led me into such a trance
please tell me your truths I must just be bling

A kiss, not something I can be deprived
It's gone far past like and on to harsh lust
Not much from this feeling can be derived
with a relationship like this cannot come trust

Again only certain thoughts run through my head
As I toss and turn falling asleep in my bed.




okay for this,
i cannot be held accountable for what i said
it was just me writing and again...
it's a little..
well
risk{cool e apostraphe thingy.}
so...



[I feel completely incomplete without trust]

I'm not complaining [oh yes you are]
I cannot stand this feeling
it crawls to my finger tips
and longs to be let out through words,
preferably actions [with you]
I want to push you agains
your seafoam colored car and let
these teenage longings roam
and i want you, every inch of
your body against my own
I want to trace you and feel you shudder
I'm sick of being responsible, i am
sick of being safe
I want to hear nothing about
consequence of about what
happened to my faith
I want to be unreasonable
I don't want to think things
through
But I also want to hold your hand and be able to trust you too
I wan tthe feeling of innocence that
can be described with every kiss

but i know i have to choose
one or the other it cannot be
just this.





[end awkward moment.]

and excuse my spelling errors and grammatical tidbits
hey..
the blog has it's url for a reason.


peace.