forgive the spelling and grammatical errors...i was on a rant.

last night,
i had a dream
that i was walking through barnes and noble... i walked outside in the cold, to find it snowing
and i decided to go into a bar near the store. my father walked in and i created some made up answer of why i was in there and told him i was leaving. he followed me outside and said he needed a better explanation of why i was in there.
i told him he didn't deserve one because
he was barely a father anyway.
he insisited we talk but i told him i had to go...
so he followed me to my car.
i told him get in will talk when we go...whereever i was going.
so we drove,
i tried to get out of the parking lot but the windows fogged up, and my sister...and i'm pretty sure my brother were suddenly in the back seat too.
we drove through the parking lot, and he just sat nervous in the front seat.
he told me where to go to get out of the parking lot, and i tried...
and couldn't see...so i turned around and went my way out and it worked fine.

we were on the road
and taylor was teaching peter how to skate board,
when i waved at taylor he rolled my eyes and through the window i saw him mouth
"Ugh not this again..."
i turned the corner pulled the car into a driveway and said to my dad, brother and sister
that if i was going to deal with my dad now i might as well deal with the taylor thing to.
they got out of the car to sort of witness
what was happening and i yelled at them to go to the other side of the car so they couldn't see.
i told peter to do the same.
i yelled at taylor
told him he was a jerk,
and tried to slap him...unsuccessfully..
he said that he was sick of me trying to get back into his life.
that i was annoying,
and was always trying to match clothes with him. [weird i know.]
i said that that wasn't true.
it was beyond my control and i could't do anything about it.
just then two of my friends walked by...
[oh and it was magically summer when i saw taylor...fyi]
i told them to wait down by the corner until i was finished.


it ended with
me and taylor almost finishing our conversation.



i'm not saying that this is how i'm feeling
it was just strange to have,
so many words that i have wanted before
to be exchanged.




well...
onto saturday
with a new perspective.

oh and
i have no feelings for him now.

and that him.
is not taylor.



[end rant.]